In a nutshell, its actually WARM. really warm in my room! – hahah my lovely housemates spam heating like mad – and I’m thankful! I guess cos’ of this – the white snow outside does not seem so threatening. Its actually lovely – and as I glanced sidelong to confirm my thoughts – it’s snowing =)

The snow is really lovely – only cos’ its the UK and it doesn’t really SNOW SNOW. It’s like fireflies at night, it floats and spins in random motions. And cos’ I stood outside my window (in the warmth) and poking my head in the cool cool air – it’s really amazing to just have time to witness this. It’s really REALLY like a snow globe. Want to take a video – but my camera’s dead.

I had travel depression – flight here was bad. waited 1 hour for baggage claim 12 hours flight = eternity. But anyhoos, I’m back. Thank God for housemates!- thanks Oliver for waiting in the cold (omg it was really cold lah) – and carrying my bags heh while I happily just went to play guitar and totally forgot about it.

This morning it really sank in – how limbo-like my life is in both worlds, its a new change I’m getting used to – when I put away my passport/travel pouch, took out my keys and bus pass as if I took on another life somewhere.

On a random note – I thank Mommy for buying me this Zen Mosaic thingy with RADIO. Totally enjoying radio now in my warm warm room.

I can’t believe it – but on Christmas Eve morning – I fell down with a disgusting red splotch of broken teared skin down my right knee.

I collapsed face down – and funny, cos’ I felt myself falling slow motion!

I barely ran 50 metres.

This was my attempt to run around the longkang – but sigh – stupid dakota has been so construction-ised its SUPER DUSTY. Tripped over some stupid brick and fell on the concrete =(

Getting up – i thought about how we were all 5 and falling down was the most common thing. Too bad now we heal slower and its totally ugly =( Nehh mind.. war scar! haha.

I returned home screaming – “Ma I fell down =( ” – its not everyday you can say that right? hahaha and as I went to the bathroom to wash away the blood, I was like “see…” and started laughing “so retarded right?” and my mom started laughing too.

“why you laugh!”

“You laugh that’s why I laugh what!”

Hahah how true in so many aspects of life!

What it your eyes close before mine?
What if you lose yourself sometimes? Then I'll be the one to find you
Safe in my heart.

I love ingrid!

Thanks to Rahul – I’ve got my earbug for the week!

*She seriously sings so well! And the guy on the piano – is quite funny.

Is it obvious to you
When you walk into a room
Your face is all I see?

And my heart races so fast
I never knew a rush to feel like that
Every time you’re touching me

I never did believe in anything
I couldn’t hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It’s just so real the way it lingers

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
When everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you

If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever with you

No, this feeling doesn’t end
It’s with me everywhere I am
Hope it never goes away

It’s like defying gravity
Losin’ all control and bein’ free
And I always wanna stay

I never thought that I’d let go
Long enough to fall for someone so deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
When everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you

If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost

Don’t tell me where we’re goin’
I don’t wanna know
I like the mystery
I can’t believe we’ve come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn’t lookin’
You found me

And now I’m lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
And everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you, without you

If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you

Yeah, if bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
Oh, bein’ lost means that I’m never
Gonna be without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever with you

As inspired by the Film and Fondue night at the chaplaincy! =)

–> It totally reminded me of speech and drama. Dang, wish I was back there doing exams = will totally do this! Quite the (oh my I forgot her name!) -SAMS – still remember that lady?? THE ONE WHO CLEANS THE HOUSE AND TALKS ABOUT LOVE TOO? OH MAN – WHO IS SHEEEEE

help – I got short term memory!

While I’m scurrying through different social mediums, updating website after website and printing posters, a thought came to my mind – in response to something I once agreed to (in a church group)

A: “I think the whole point is to show that hey, we are normal human beings too!”

I think I still agree with that – normalcy is something palatable for everyone. But a thought appeared in my head:

Maybe, we are not called to be normal – but extraordinary.
Maybe, we are not called to be “human”, but ‘not of this earth’.

My conclusion?

Simply be – and constantly be open to being an instrument!

“Bless you!”
-after a crazy day and I sneezed next to a stranger.

“Here, take my seat!”
-whilst I lugged my luggage up the bus

“my mission to paste this without you knowing failed.”
-you made my day =)

C              F
In the chaos, in confusion
Am                     G
I know You’re Sovereign still
C              F
In the moment of my weakness
Am             G
You give me grace to do Your will

Been a crazy week/ or rather – first two weeks in school!

SERIOUSLY.

My nephew is born! =) Little Isaac!

Too many things happen to blog!

——–Nerina

Oh, this road is long, this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
“There’s nothing bound in thought you cannot do?”
Well, I’ve seen some things but not all of them came true.

So I don’t want to be the last, I don’t want to be the first,
Don’t want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don’t want to be afraid, don’t want to look away,
I’m learning to breathe,
No I don’t want to be the last, I don’t want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I’m learning to breathe on my own.

And I know a man who lost his wife,
This is the way he chooses to describe his life,
He says, “If I think too much, I find there’s just a hole,”
But before she went, she left a son,
He says, “Dad, you’re not the only one,
Maybe love is just a requiem for the soul…”

So I don’t want to be the last, I don’t want to be the first,
Don’t want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don’t want to be afraid, don’t want to look away,
I’m learning to breathe,
No I don’t want to be the last, I don’t want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I’m learning to breathe on my own.

Oh, do you still feel small?
Just a speck of life on an ocean wave,
Does it pull us all?
Does it pull us all?

So I don’t want to be the last, I don’t want to be the first,
Don’t want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don’t want to be afraid, don’t want to look away,
I’m learning to breathe,
No I don’t want to be the last, I don’t want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I’m learning to breathe on my own.

Oh! And toying with the guitar I came up with my favourite chords!

Happy chords: EAB

Sad chords: A,A7, D,Dm

I like creating.

Jam and peanutbuttercups – I’m itching to make penang assam laksa next!