- and sometimes not really speak.

I just ended a skype conversation with Abby – with the first few seconds featuring Abby showing me her huge eye bags. So scary – this is what waking at 5 am does to her. Haha. 

Today’s skype conversation was almost like a metaphor. 

It was sporadic – in a way. We talked a bit – got excited over the CROCS  that I finally promised her I’ll buy and put the jitbitx thingy on, talked about moving in with others, talked about airplane tickets and the possibility that SAMS can yet again celebrate christmas at simpang with gifts exhange and write our new year resolutions at the airport. – that made me smile. =) [it dragged my tired and feverish muscles to a smile - that was how lovely the thought was!]

Other than that – it was – weird white noise, staring at the computer, random msn sounds, random “eh-I-go-toilet-first”, to “eh-abby-see-this-photo” but more so – silence.

Reading Shu Hua’s post – and I quote dear ah hua (whom I havent met to talk ages and eons!) “im amazed at your conviction to invest your time and effort in our lives, despite being hundred and thousands of miles away.” It dawned upon me finally –> the pinnacle of thoughts that floated around (I wanted to write a post for you when you left! But the words did not come out right!) – that metaphor was just like our 2 years in Tj.

Through those times – you never restricted me to fly (and flew freely I did), you never demanded, yet often – it was you who remained “convict(ed) to invest your time and effort in our lives” – applies to SAMS too. I learn so much from you – I don’t know where to start. (cept’ the time we fought over transport fees at Shu Hua’s house – that was just ?! hahahah – funny!)

You were truly like the w***y (go figure silently!), giving me support, hugs, sandwiches in the morning (which I admit, I eat as a side dish rather than main one hahah), advice when I need it – and more so – silence in the noisy world I often venture into. 

I think it’s ever so beautiful — this silence. 

Our Kuantan Cruise

I think this picture is so kuku can. But it brings back so much! =)

23rd December!

My long overdue tribute to Abby.

(and you know what – you know that it goes more than these 456 words typed out. )